Switzerland

So my time in Switzerland is winding down.....Its been an amazing time here......The landscape reminds me of home with the green hills and the large mountains....The German part of the country was very welcoming thanks to Joel a student from last years DTS.......Everything there was so interesting.....everything from the houses, the shops and the streets.......We performed at two different places a theatre and a church.....over a thousand people came to watch our performance :)......It was a great start to our outreach.....

After the German part we traveled to the French part of Switzerland where we stayed for 10 days at the YWAM base in Lausanne.........The beds are comfortable and the food is really good......however our team has been fighting off sickness since the moment we got here :(.....But we are doing our best to hang in there.... We are performing in a outreach called Regeneration at the famous Jazz festival in Montreux..... We perform and share the gospel with people for about 9 days.....I had the opportunity to share the gospel with my personal testimony.......The atmosphere is a little hard to be in at times.....lots of drinking and smoking.....we know that we had purpose being there....even when we worship in the park or when it rains and all we can do is worship till the rain stops we get a crowd.......I know that God is dropping seeds in peoples hearts through our production......:) Next stop Italy

These last couple of weeks have been a little on edge but really awesome. No one ever said trusting God with your life was ever easy.....Not sure what the end of the road really looks like but I know whatever He has instore is completely amazing....Because the feeling of being inlove with Him is so overwhelming that I can't deny that He loves me very much and He will direct me to the right path of my life.......After being honest with God about how I lack trust in Him.....He showed why I need to trust His will no matter what circumstances I am in.....He put me in the right place at the right time and blessed me with a friend of a friend that knows a foundation that loves to give money to mission work.....and provided me with nearly all of my outreach money....God is truly amazing.......I know God's purpose for my life is far above my own purpose for my life.....Seeking time with God is priority to seek what He wants me to do......I truly know that God wants me to stay longer in Hawaii after outreach....My father is showing interest in my faith and is starting to feel more comfortable coming up to the YWAM base :)......I miss many friends from Oregon but I have begun some new friendships here and I just heard God telling me to wait upon Him to grow me and refine me...not to say that can't happen in Oregon but I notice things about myself....When things get uncomfortable or hard I tend to run to places where things easy and comfortable.....People think I am having a blast in Hawaii....... and that has been very far from the case....This season in my life has probably been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through with my relationship with God....Confronting lies about myself that I have believed for so long......Pain that I have been bottleing up my whole life.....Batteling things out that come between the relationship with my Savior..........There is still more to go......I know things have just begun and I am excited for this journey I am on because I feel like I am on a honey moon with Jesus and I never want it to end..... I have has a couple of panic moments here because I feel very poor....I have no stable fall back plan no future plan at all......Unsure of what my future holds.....I need a lot of spiritual support this next season in my life and I need fiancial support as well....I am really discouraged when it comes to finances because I feel like I don't have a lot of people in my life that want to support me financially....However my God works in mysterious and powerful ways........If God calls me somewhere He will make things happen that need to happen......
So I am writing all of this in probably the most beautiful country I have ever been to......Its no tropical island but its very green, very clean, and everyone speaks another language.....oh and the buildings are so amazing only can be seen in the movies :) The coffee and chocloate is so good its hard for me to describe other than amazing.......have you guessed it yet.......well its Switzerland :)....I have been here only two days and I have already felt major peace and joy being here at outreach knowing God loves me and I want to be a light to the people I am around........I wish I could write my mom and tell her about this amazing place so I am writing to you faithful followers instead :).......A couple of us walked into this little bakery shop and they treated us like royalty......they gave us free chocolate and pastries.....pretty amazing people here so far :)

This is my heart as is......

Lord God your are my creator I am sitting in your room of prayer right now crying out to you to show me where you are right now.....I have a half an hour for my outreach fund to be covered a amount of 3600 dollars.....These have been my honest feelings and emotions in the last couple of weeks.......I feel I don't have a lot of supporters a total of 4 people have called me from Oregon to see how I am doing.....Many times I have felt a distant from you and alone in this world I am in.......My road has been really broken......Life growing up was far from easy.......Going from teenager to adulthood was incredibly difficult.....I have never felt more alone in my life when my Mom got the disease that took her life......I think that is why its so hard for me to trust your ways.....God you have given me restoration and begun a healing process of the suffering I have endured and my heart is so in love with you God.....I can't imagine a life with out you in it......Because of the things that I have endured its hard for me to believe that you are going to take care of my needs......I closed my eyes and you showed me where you were.....you were there at the hospitals.....you were there when she went into a coma....you were there in the months upon months where I sat and watched my mom struggle to speak and move her body....you were always there I may not of felt you because of my own suffering but you were you never left me....You are here now.......You will direct the right path I need to take....If you provide the funds for outreach that is your will if you don't you have something amazing in store for me and I am excited to be in this place of intimacy with you.....Outreach won't change the fact that your are my God.......

lastest buzz of life in YWAM

Hello..............Its been awhile since I have updated but God really loves me and I am now embracing the fact that Jesus thinks I am a beautiful creation......He loves me and adores me so much that I can truly embrace the Destiny He totally has planned out for me.....These last weeks have been really hard on my heart......There was a lot of pain in my life brought out into the open......especially the emptiness I feel with my mom and the pain that my dad has caused in my life.......I felt like I was in a bottomless pit with my Father I felt like the pain he caused me was always going to be in my heart till he left this world or no longer wanted me to be part of his world......But the Lord has taken hold of my heart and showed me the life and pain I have endured in the past has been put on the cross and that He wants me to break the bondage between me and my father......For the first time in my entire life I have seen my dad through the eyes of Jesus and that He loves and cares for my father deeply.....I now enjoy spending time with my dad.....I look forward to taking walks on the beach and talking to my dad about my life and about how God is in my life and what has happened........The emptiness that has been plaguing me with the death of my mom has been starting to be filled with God's love I still think I have a long way to go with this one but knowing that God has come in and shaken my heart for His glory brings me to a place where I am surrendering every part of my broken heart over...allowing God to move in the places that need to be moved..................
I also experienced how God provides........I needed a down payment of 2000 dollars last week and had no money.......less than 24 hours I had all of the 2000 dollars.............I am so thankful to the people that love me and God tugged on their hearts to give money to my outreach I still need 3800 dollars by Friday but I know whether God provides or not I still have Christ has my prize....Philippians 3:7 -15 this changed my life.......I am ready to lose my life just so I can find it.........

Its been a crazy last 10 days

We had a full week of auditions which I was a nervous wreck for....I didn't get the modern dance....my dancing skills need a lot improving......lol......God has been showing me that I am not here to dance I am here to serve God with my heart and my life.....My Dad lives here on the island.....its been really hard spending time with him......He has no respect for me as a person.....He lives to drink and drinks to live........Its real scary watching him waste his life away but God has been telling me to keep enduring and to draw strength from Him.........

As far as the people here its been a total blast.....again like usual a ton of guy friends already...I even hitch hiked with some European's to go cliff jumping.......:) I had to kill a cock roach in my room yesterday morning.......our room had a lot of screams that morning.....l0l......I am learning a lot about the Korean culture.......they have been so hospitable towards me and very caring and sensitive...:)

My days are long..........We have breakfast around 630am and go all the way till dinner at 5pm then we serve and clean up dinner then we have gatherings and productions practice till around 9pm............typical day at YWAM for me........

I have been feeling really sick the last couple of days.....:(........It has been hard to keep my head focused..........I am still totally excited to be here and am enjoying and emerging myself to what God has in store for me..........Miss all your smiles....much Love Sarah

I'm Here

I made it to the school and I feel this awesome peace being here....I am rooming with three girls from the east coast and three girls from Korea.......its been awesome......The schools vision is so awesome.... this schools focus is Jesus and sharing the Love of Christ to all nations......I still have no money even to start my out reach but I am praising God for all that he has done and its a total blessing just being here.......There are people from all over the world here....I have met people from Canada....Germany.....France.....Switzerland.....Holland.....Nigeria...and many more I can not remember at this moment......I know God's love is pouring out on me right now and I know he has dreams and plans that are bigger than I could ever imagine them being....Oh ya theres one guy from eastern oregon he is real nice and friendly gave me a big hug when he heard I was from Oregon.....:)

Its geeting real close

My Journey to YWAM is almost begining.....I am totally unsure of what is going to happen but I know God is totally guiding me to where I need to go in this adventure of a lifetime....Never in my whole life have I ever expierenced something so profound.....God's love is everlasting and truly anything is possible for those who believe in Him.......I am excited for the people I am going to meet and the things God is going to show me during this time........I am so thankful for God providing people in my life that have suppported me in this journey with prayers and continued prayers and support financially and continued support.......I am so overwhelmed with the God's will for my life :)