Lord God your are my creator I am sitting in your room of prayer right now crying out to you to show me where you are right now.....I have a half an hour for my outreach fund to be covered a amount of 3600 dollars.....These have been my honest feelings and emotions in the last couple of weeks.......I feel I don't have a lot of supporters a total of 4 people have called me from Oregon to see how I am doing.....Many times I have felt a distant from you and alone in this world I am in.......My road has been really broken......Life growing up was far from easy.......Going from teenager to adulthood was incredibly difficult.....I have never felt more alone in my life when my Mom got the disease that took her life......I think that is why its so hard for me to trust your ways.....God you have given me restoration and begun a healing process of the suffering I have endured and my heart is so in love with you God.....I can't imagine a life with out you in it......Because of the things that I have endured its hard for me to believe that you are going to take care of my needs......I closed my eyes and you showed me where you were.....you were there at the hospitals.....you were there when she went into a coma....you were there in the months upon months where I sat and watched my mom struggle to speak and move her body....you were always there I may not of felt you because of my own suffering but you were you never left me....You are here now.......You will direct the right path I need to take....If you provide the funds for outreach that is your will if you don't you have something amazing in store for me and I am excited to be in this place of intimacy with you.....Outreach won't change the fact that your are my God.......
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