These last couple of weeks have been a little on edge but really awesome. No one ever said trusting God with your life was ever easy.....Not sure what the end of the road really looks like but I know whatever He has instore is completely amazing....Because the feeling of being inlove with Him is so overwhelming that I can't deny that He loves me very much and He will direct me to the right path of my life.......After being honest with God about how I lack trust in Him.....He showed why I need to trust His will no matter what circumstances I am in.....He put me in the right place at the right time and blessed me with a friend of a friend that knows a foundation that loves to give money to mission work.....and provided me with nearly all of my outreach money....God is truly amazing.......I know God's purpose for my life is far above my own purpose for my life.....Seeking time with God is priority to seek what He wants me to do......I truly know that God wants me to stay longer in Hawaii after outreach....My father is showing interest in my faith and is starting to feel more comfortable coming up to the YWAM base :)......I miss many friends from Oregon but I have begun some new friendships here and I just heard God telling me to wait upon Him to grow me and refine me...not to say that can't happen in Oregon but I notice things about myself....When things get uncomfortable or hard I tend to run to places where things easy and comfortable.....People think I am having a blast in Hawaii....... and that has been very far from the case....This season in my life has probably been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through with my relationship with God....Confronting lies about myself that I have believed for so long......Pain that I have been bottleing up my whole life.....Batteling things out that come between the relationship with my Savior..........There is still more to go......I know things have just begun and I am excited for this journey I am on because I feel like I am on a honey moon with Jesus and I never want it to end..... I have has a couple of panic moments here because I feel very poor....I have no stable fall back plan no future plan at all......Unsure of what my future holds.....I need a lot of spiritual support this next season in my life and I need fiancial support as well....I am really discouraged when it comes to finances because I feel like I don't have a lot of people in my life that want to support me financially....However my God works in mysterious and powerful ways........If God calls me somewhere He will make things happen that need to happen......
So I am writing all of this in probably the most beautiful country I have ever been to......Its no tropical island but its very green, very clean, and everyone speaks another language.....oh and the buildings are so amazing only can be seen in the movies :) The coffee and chocloate is so good its hard for me to describe other than amazing.......have you guessed it yet.......well its Switzerland :)....I have been here only two days and I have already felt major peace and joy being here at outreach knowing God loves me and I want to be a light to the people I am around........I wish I could write my mom and tell her about this amazing place so I am writing to you faithful followers instead :).......A couple of us walked into this little bakery shop and they treated us like royalty......they gave us free chocolate and pastries.....pretty amazing people here so far :)